Hard hit! But worth the Realization

I have wondered several years ago what God means to me? I took it lightly and tried to define God in a way that made sense to me. I defined it this way – All that is NOT HUMANLY POSSIBLE but by the ULTIMATE POWER. It has been at least a decade that this has been my belief and I connect strongly with this because all that I have asked for has come true. Adding more to it, I happened to read The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. It read to me about ABR tool – very Powerful.

Ask Believe Rejoice! Ask the ultimate Power you believe in for what you want. Could be Universe, or God or name it as per your belief. Believe that you will receive it and Rejoice that yours ask is fulfilled. It can sound crazy for a few who know me as a person who runs behind logic in most instances of life. But this is also me.

Three days ago, the conversation was heading tangentially in the opposite direction between me and my colleague. As always – No conclusion. The discussion traveled over several topics. My mind was stuck on the topic with existence of God and the form of existence. Along with it the – How can things materialize only by writing and saying/asking to universe or to the ultimate power.

The next day I ended up starting the topic with other two colleagues. The best was to have an out of office discussion. I did not know what I was asking for. We headed for tea and the discussion continued. The discussion took a steady move in a very much logic driven way. For my own benefit I would want to name ourselves – Fighter Cock, Silent Spectator, Logical Speaker and Me. Logical speaker started with what with God mean to me. I said – A Feeling of ultimate power. The existence of ultimate power which can do anything that is humanly no possible. This has been my understanding and I expressed it likewise.

While the questions drilled into the answers I gave and the discussion were on, simple truth hit it hard. If asking and receiving was that simple and the way of life, then why would a child old get raped? Why would there be millions of lives dying? Does that mean that they dint ask for what they wanted firmly? It has to be WE - PEOPLE AROUND who must take the step and make things happen or/and stop social evil and not wait for some miracle to happen.

Many more questions posted by Fighter cock which I am not able to recollect now. I was numb for several minutes and dint have answers to it. I surrendered there. I felt too little when I realised that have been worrying about things unworthy through that day.  This thought disturbed me and dint stop there.

I went on to discuss this with my friend who shares similar belief as mine – Akhila. She is clueless too. I also shared this incident with mom. She refrained from discussing this as she doesn’t know the what and the why. I still am in the lookout for my answers. 

I am not able to accept that ABR cannot work at the same time I cannot say that people who suffered the misery did not pray with complete faith. I am stuck now.